Filmmakers Notes:

I have experimented with distancing myself from the interaction of human bodies and the fixation on eroticized body in post porn fims. Kinetic sand, butt cheeks, insect robots, and more were conceptualized as actors in their own right, recontextualized during montage within a digital, extended ecosexual pleasure fiction. Influenced by my affliction with complex PTSD and dysphoria as a trans*person, I was interested in representational possibilities of fragmented perceptions of reality that do not pathologize and normatively patch them back to a coherent perception. Combining 2D and 3D image manipulation programs I developed a destabilized visual language and patchy visual counter-fiction of bodies and sex that decisively departs from the dominant norm of representation, challenges the notion of the body as an autonomous, self-contained entity and instead supports a new-materialist, post-humanist notion of queer desire. Beyond the default settings of verticality and earthly rules of gravity, I misappropriated image production tools to visualize the porousness of bodily boundaries and fragmented perceptions of Self and Other in interplay with active gestures of sexiness. Multiple and frequently changing camera perspectives, which stand in devoted relationship to the actors, are intended to dissolve the static location of the viewer and aim to unsettle and shift habitual distances.