This short film looks at queer imagery, fat-phobia, and reclamation through autobiographical narrative, black and white photography, and stop motion animation.

In Aztec mythology, the goddess Coyolxauhqui was severed into pieces by her brother, the god of war. This film recounts the lessons learned by a queer daughter from her round mother’s body, framed by the story of Coyolxauhqui. It opens with a bright gold and turquois rendering of the goddess breaking apart and trailing off the screen. It is quickly replaced by black and white photos of Pendleton Jiménez as a child beside her mother. She describes the comfort of snuggling into her mother’s big, soft body while recounting the hurtful comments about weight directed at this body. The daughter learns to take seriously her mother’s warning, “not to ever say anything bad about a person’s body.” Through childhood stories and then erotic photos of herself as a butch lover, Pendleton Jiménez attempts to reconcile the ambivalence she experiences over her own body, where maleness and femaleness collide. Using stop-motion animation, she returns to Coyolxauhqui’s story and image, looking for a way to feel beautiful. 

 was produced as part of an LGBTQ health centre program to create films about queer women’s bodies.

Butch Coyolxauhqui

“The worship of fat pleasures… You are the embodiment of lust & gluttony combined” An intimate colour-drenched celebration of queer fat sensuality, ‘Object(s) of Desire’ is a three performer portrait & poem film featuring Smashlyn Monroe, Jade Williams & the film’s director Liberty Antonia Sadler. Playfully decadent & emotionally candid, ‘Object(s) of Desire’ invites you to join a Bacchian revelry of XXL homoerotica; with each performer embracing their body & sexuality on their own terms, with pride, liberation & mutual devotion. 

The film’s text explores the complex journey to self-affirmation & acceptance in relation to size & sexuality, reclaiming the fetishization often placed on fat bodies from an external societal gaze. ‘Object(s) of Desire’ aims to be a moment of softness & kinship for fat queers, an invitation to enjoy our sexy selves, and see each other as works of art to be embraced. This short film is a slow & sweet invocation that combines queer joy, fat pleasures & friendship; all while provocatively questioning a fatphobic culture: “do you object?...or indulge?”

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Fatness